The Foster House

As many as you know, I have bipolar disorder. I was first put on Abilfy, but it made me manic as hell. Then my doctor put me on Lamictal 25mg. After a month of that I am up to 50mg. I can't really tell whether or not it is working, mostly because I have sunk pretty hard into a depression. The past week has been pretty awful, I came very close to committing myself. The deep dark hole you find yourself in is not easyt to climb out of. I have noticed an increase in delf medication..aka drinking. I have decided to actually seek help from a psychiatrist. I feel like I need to talk to someone and not just take meds. Meds can only do so much, especially when you have a lot on your mind. Either way, I have noticed I have not been manic in a while, slightly hypomanic, but no full blown mania. I suppose that could be seen as an improvement. I am hoping as I talk to someone and increase my meds things get a little better. Anyone with this disorder knows mania is a lot more fun than these depressions, but I at least moved from the couch and did some things today. It is all baby steps. Hope you all have had a great day and wonderful holidays. Stay sane!